Thursday, November 1, 2007

Does anyone have any Klonopin???




For those of you who don't work at a high school and happen to know all the terminology for the various pharmaceuticals, these are anxiety pills. The reason why I am under all this stress and need some quick fixes is that I am going away for the weekend. No Husbie. No Addi. Just me and lots of paper, glue and a bunch of pictures (scrapbook weekend.) This is where I feel like Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde. One part of me is pumped! I can sleep all night without my small baby yelling for me to rescue her from her evil crib, and then proceeding to slap me in the face for the rest of the night (yes, I am a bad mother.) I wont have to make any food, I wont have to put dishes in the dish washer, no laundry; just a sweet, sweet all ladies weekend. The other half of me is terrified! I probably wont be able to sleep because I will constantly be worried that she is screaming at her daddy all weekend. I will toss and turn because I will miss the sweet punches from my baby. I will have to come home to a dirty house, which will stress me out even more, and how can I sit for hours at a time scrapbooking my baby and not burst into tears every time I look at her sweet face! Plus she is at a stage where I cant even walk across the room away from her before she cries out for me... how am I supposed to leave? This is a major delima and my stomach hurts already! But I guess it will be good for me anyway...even though I am starting to well up just thinking about it. This is going to be rough.

5 comments:

Laura said...

Oh my gosh! I am getting teary just reading that post! I would be dying too! I'm sure you'll have a fun even though you will be worrying the whole time.

Jennica said...

i remember how it was so hard leaving the little uns when they were little. by that I mean less than a year. now, i would be so elated to leave for a weekend, that i would be scared, only for the fact that i would have too much fun without all the responsibility of being wife & mom. enjoy it as much as you can, because you totally deserve it lady!

Brian and Lauren said...

I have Klonopin! I honestly do, lol. Its always nice to have time away. I had my mom come up and I did a girls trip with my sister in laws to Las Vegas. You have earned a break, and your loves will be with you in your heart ♥. Remember absence makes the heart grow fonder!

MyR said...

I need more girls time! Not having my sisters around I don't get it as much as I need sometimes. A whole weekend??? What a FABULOUS idea! I don't know if I would come back...okay, I would but I'm sure it was a great excape from reality for awhile.

Jolley Family said...

I have some!!!